I retired from full-time education and set off for South East Asia
shortly after arriving in Bangkok, Thailand I took a night train south
sometime after waking the next morning i decide to disembark in Chumphon City
then I met Pon Rasta & a HoneyBear
and Oh Boy, did we have adventures<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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but in the meantime … there is this ::: <\/p>\n\n\n\n
[from a narrative idea 2022] — a broken little bird came to my window \u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Just yesterday\u2026 midday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Wrapped my lecherous libido in chains of deuterium <\/p>\n\n\n\n
the chains failed and I leaned into subtle entendre \u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
between the tears she nodded at tea \u2014 apple cinnamon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A particular kind found in every corner of Canada<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We talked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She felt lost in the weight of placelessness (synonyms?)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I fumbled for something appropriate <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026 to fill the gaps in the hurt-heartfelt collapse <\/p>\n\n\n\n
of another relationship turn\u2019d sour<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I danced for her while slowly unwinding a travel story <\/p>\n\n\n\n
An Oliver and Abu story – Karin will remember with clarity<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I recall snippets. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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She left after dinner and I opened a second bottle of Merlot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now it\u2019s nearing 4 in the mornin\u2019\u2026..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Echoes of Ani are floating, slightly reverberating<\/p>\n\n\n\n
amongst the detritus of my collapsed consciousness,..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
… drifting<\/p>\n\n\n\n
… driffff ting …..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 I\u2019m in dimly lit narrow hall, .. but it warps, dissolves \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and then \u2014 it\u2019s a dark road, except .. there on the left, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
above a low cliff,.. a faint glimmer of daylight and hope<\/p>\n\n\n\n
.. just beginning to arise in the distance<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And who am I ?? I\u2019m the Matador.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 somebody once told me that much\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m legs out,.. barrellin\u2019 down the road, .. rollin\u2019 along with ease.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
in faint, misty evening light \u2014 I see a blue jacket, black trim. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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It\u2019s a friend that has recently past,.. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Only the recent years have been stripped away \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is only as we pass, that I recognize the slow shuffle <\/p>\n\n\n\n
of a life at ease. My mind must be feverish from a fitful sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Still caught in the trappings of memory<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I turn,\u2026 to make certain, I\u2019m already calling his name<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I turn and he waves, as his form morphs<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve experienced this before<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was always unsettling in my 20\u2019s<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cLard why couldn\u2019t I just be simple like Leonard\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As the last atoms of my buddy rise,.. Like morning vapours<\/p>\n\n\n\n
.. from an open creek in November I turn, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026 and continue forward<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What\u2019s passed is past.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now I\u2019m walking a hall <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m in the building where I still work,.. Only not much longer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026 make it so I intone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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The walls fall away and I\u2019m with Gerard,\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Duchame\u2019s son, he\u2019s holding a bundle in his arms.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s his newborn child and I\u2019m acknowledged with a smile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sleep calls again and i slink into bed, .. my second one tonight<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The first one didn\u2019t bring much sleep .. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But … it did feature a fabulous song from 80\u2019s high school dances<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Thomson Twins, \u201cHold Me Now\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
get this, misheard lyrics.. ,.. I\u2019d always thought the response to \u201cHold me now\u201d ..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
was :: \u2018\u201cAll my power\u201d, but tonight I find the correct phrase :: \u201cWarm my heart\u201d..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Solstice is upon us.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
we are 51\u2019 North and the days stretch \u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
into and past 18 hours,.. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
and the daylight finds me workin\u2019\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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…. stay tuned Dear Readers<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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